Wilderness

I haven't felt led to post anything on this blog in a while, and I nearly cancelled it because I thought I am wasting time on the computer. But then I went back and read through my posts and it made me want to continue blogging because it allowed me to see where I was and where I am today. It's very interesting how God moves in your life when you step back and look at the big picture.

I think I have been in a wilderness lately... where I needed to be alone with my thoughts and with the Lord. He probably diverted my attention away from this blog so that I wouldn't write something that I would regret or that wouldn't honor Him. I'm glad for that. It's been kind of nice just being still and QUIET in the Lord and trying to find HIS perspective on things.

My heart has been heavy these last few months. The feelings won't go away, and now it's becoming something that I can't let go... I obsess over it. I won't go into detail, but suffice it to say that a few things are unclear to me me right now. More than anything, I want to please my Lord and do what He calls me to do. I want to be in the center of His will, and so this summer I have gone back to the basics of my faith.

The first thing I did was I went back to the church where I asked the Lord into my heart. It was refreshing to be there because it brought back the memories of a Sunday morning in May of 1992 and all the wonderful feelings that I had. It also made James and I appreciate where we now worship. :) Love those hymns... but there's something to be said about our church family and how important those bonds are to us.

Then I went back to the Proverbs. If you lack wisdom, this is where you go to gain it. My prayer is by the end of the year, God will lead us where he wants us to be and grant me some wisdom along the way. Thanks for your prayers...

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God,

who gives generously to all without finding fault,

and it will be given to him."

~James 1:5